I love him. I really do. He doesn’t return the love and it’s making me feel bad. I don’t want him to date me because he feels sorry for me. I’m just hoping he’ll fall in love with me, and everything will be alright. It’s going to take me a long time to get over him rejecting me.
I’ve always wanted to fall in love, but when I did, I had to fall in love with somebody out of my league. I’ve had crushes on people out of my league, but I’ve never been in love with them. And Noah could be in my league, but it’s kind of complicated.
Since Noah knows that I like him, he probably thinks I’m an idiot. Taylor won’t tell me exactly what Noah said. He only told me Noah said “no”. I knew Noah was going to say that, but I caught Taylor and Noah too late and then that happened.
But if Noah had said “yes”, I would’ve had to tell him I’m actually a guy, and I don’t know what his exact reaction would be.
My parents won’t let me change my room. And the trunks I wanted got discontinued. I’m most likely going to use all of my money on an iPhone. And I really need more money. And my mom’s going to retire after next year.
